Five weeks ago I wrote the Feeling Optimistic post and at the time I was. Yesterday, I just felt frustrated. This morning I went for my 7th physical therapy session & basically I have the same pain as I did 5 weeks ago. Fortunately, the pain hasn't gotten worse it just hasn't gotten any better either. Part of my frustration is because for a couple of weeks I thought it was get better but as it turned out the pain was masked by large doses of Ibuprofen.
5 years ago all I did was Yoga. I loved Yoga. It made me strong. In 2008 I started spinning, in the spring of 2009 I started jogging, in the summer of 2009 I signed up for my first triathlon with Team in Training and all of a sudden Yoga took a backseat. I barely practiced. I was in the pool 3x a week, riding 2x, & running 3x. I didn't have time for Yoga. In September 2009 I became a triathlete. I fell in love with the sport. I couldn't stop researching races, reading magazines & books. Along the way I have met some awesome people who I now call friends but I turned my back on my yoga practice.
I do miss the 2+ hour workouts, the sweating, the feeling I have after a really hard workout. Crazy, 5 years ago all the training didn't seem appealing to me. Since I have quite a bit of spare time these days, I have been reading several blogs. The story is the same for running & triathlon blogs. Somewhere along the line you decide to sign up for a triathlon or running race. Maybe you finally decided to lose the weight once & for all. Maybe someone told you you couldn't do it. Maybe it is the only way you can honor a loved ones memory. You have never done something so crazy before. Heck, I couldn't swim when I signed up for my first triathlon. You put in hours & hours of long, hard work & in 14 weeks time you are a triathlete. When you crossed that first finish line you realized that if you put your mind to it you can achieve anything. That, is an amazing feeling.
I decided late last week that I would go back to doing Yoga several days a week. This weekend, I went both Saturday & Sunday. At the end of yesterday's practice the instructor read this quote from the Dalai Lama “Every day, think as you wake up, today I am fortunate to be alive, I have a precious human life, I am not going to waste it. I am going to use all my energies to develop myself, to expand my heart out to others; to achieve enlightenment for the benefit of all beings. I am going to have kind thoughts towards others, I am not going to get angry or think badly about others. I am going to benefit others as much as I can.”
Today I read Katie's post over at Will Run for Carbs & it made me laugh. It resonated so well with me because it was so true. I do feel like every post is about my injury (which it is) & I do feel like I am whining a lot (which I am). I realize that this will soon pass & in the meantime I need to re-adjust my expectations.
It is so silly for me to be frustrated with not being able to run or ride. I mean really, I can still do so many other things. I will still post about my recovery not to feel sorry for myself but to document the progress I am making. In the meantime, I am going to do as many Pilates, Yoga & Strength training classes as I can fit into my schedule. I am also going to walk a few 5Ks just for fun.
Thanks for reading! Happy Monday!